Dear Blog,

It's been a long time. It is time to blow the dust off this old blog and revive it with some fresh thought and insight.

I have been going through a lot of life changes recently. I just finished the hardest semester of my life, I am about to earn an associates degree, I have made a lot of new friends, and most of these new friends come from The Salvation Army church.

The Salvation Army Church is what I kind of what to blog about today. Not really the church itself and their beliefs and whatnot, but I want to share with you the message this last Sunday. Let me preface it with this. It has been a LONG TIME since I have really remembered a sermon, taken it to heart, and really applied to my everyday life.

So what was the message?

The message was illustrated with a snowglobe. A snowglobe a little world incapusulated in a glass globe filled with water and glitter. This globe she said represented each of us and our own little worlds we live in. The glitter that comes up when shaking it represents stirring emotions such as frustration, anxiety, anger, etc. These emotions generally happen because either myself or someone other than God is holding my precious snow globe life. I am letting them or myself shake things up instead of taking my world and putting in the hands of the one who created it.

This illustration was and is so powerful in my life. I find myself stopping myself throughout this week already and saying "who is shaking up my snow globe?" I find that if nothing else it has made me more aware. Trust is something I am working on, but unfortunately I am a slow work in progress.

The other thing that was beautiful is that when I went and talked to Rachel after church she told me that she had gotten a word from the spirit about me during the message. She shared that with me and prayed over me.

Guys, I am telling you it has been a lonnnggg time. Way too long actually since I have really felt alive in the Lord and Sunday was for the first time in a LONG time refreshing.

So I am just praising God for what he is doing in my life right now. I know He has big plans for me and I can't wait for Him to reveal them to me in His timing :)

Writing a letter to my younger self...

This is a letter to my younger self and while highly personal I believe its more eloquent than one I have thought about putting on here before...you may comment if you would like...I would love to hear what your number one piece of advice would be if you wrote a letter to your younger self.




Dear younger self,
One day you will be 20 years old and still living at home. You will still be behind in school but it won't matter anymore because you will finally be in college. You will meet handsome guys and have crushes but you won't meet one yet  that you think you will marry. You will have your heart broken...but it won't be a huge crushing blow it will be more of a silent pain that the guy doesn't even know about because he doesn't know you care for him like that.But it will be ok because your still friends and you don't want that to change.

Be encouraged though! You will have great friends and a fairly great first semester in college (even though it has had its hardships). You are so blessed by the people you have in your life and you realize it more and more with each passing day, month, and year! Tip: You grow farther away from the people you are close to now and become siblings with some of the people you least expect.


You will still have a rough relationship with mom but you are learning to deal with it in a hopefully more Godly manner...Things are still hard with family sometimes but God is still in control.


You will one day finally be in college, have a car, and be alot more independent...I am there you made it...but it costs alot more than you thought it did and while well worth it...its a crazy life

The car was a hardship with alot of repairs and tears. Still needs a small repair but God did provide even though he probably provided a smaller blessing than He would have had you been more patient. Work on patience! lol

In college your first semester you will have some good professors and some not so good. You make some decent friends and its not so scary. Also you don't completely fail as you feared. I think you will make it through and be doubly excited for your second semester. :)

Overall life is ok. The same family, The absolute best of friends,  college, a car, and just a little heartache and hardship. You have built and are building alot of character still. The story isn't over...hopefully its just beginning.  I don't know about you then but me now can't wait to see what God writes next...hoping for a romance but you know what I will take adventure or whatever else God has lol.

Love,
Your current self :)