You know I never thought I would be here again....facing this same trial...again not knowing what to do. Its a little easier the next time around but its still very difficult.
I don't know why the Lord chooses the trials He does... but I know that once its over I will be a stronger in my faith because of it. I know that through this trial if I handle it correctly I will be growing more in His likeness.
That doesn't make it any less difficult to walk through this place again. I thought I was doing everything right so I would not end up in this position again but I know realize that things are not always in my control. That is hard for me. I am a person that likes to plan, organize, and know what is going on. I am a control freak. Sigh...I guess that is something I need to work on too...
So yeah, I don't know what is going to happen at the end of this road and what this trial will lead too but I do know that whatever the case the Lord knows and is taking care of it. I can't control other people but I can pray for them. I can't fix this problem but I can trust God. And I can't let unnecessary feelings of guilt plague me when I know I have asked forgiveness for whatever I might have done wrong...
Ok so none of this may make sense to you but I just had to get it off my chest.
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