Yesterday as I toured the college that I will hopefully, Lord willing be going to this next fall...I got to thinking about my future and I got overwhelmed...I was just like "great I want to be here but I still have so much to do in the next few months!" ; "How am I going to get all the things that I need to get done,done?" ; "I am going to be so confused when I come here and I know I am going to get lost! What if I fail?! What if its too hard? What will people think of me?!?"
All these thoughts were racing through my head and more...I felt sick to my stomach for a while because of the sheer anxiety I was feeling. Then I all sudden just stopped and thought..."wait a minute this is suppose to be fun and God is going to help you. Relax remember Jeremiah 29:11 and you will be okay"
I would go through so much less anxiety every day if I remember that God was there helping and supporting me. If I would remember that it wasn't all about me and it wasn't all on me....it would greatly help with my anxiety toward the future. The last few days I have experienced so much unneeded stress, anxiety, and worry that I have literally been sick to my stomach. I have not wanted to eat a whole lot and have just been pretty depressed and not really me.
I am making it a goal today to meditate on God's word, spend time talking to my saviour,and learning to trust in Him. I am tired of spending time sick to my stomach with worry and ready to spend more time trusting in my wonderful God!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
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You'll be in college next school year?? No offense, but your picture on here looks like a 13-year-old lol. Anyway, I've been looking at colleges, too. I'm thinking that Trevecca Nazarene University in Nashville will be where I go. But I'm going through the opposite. I'm so excited, so confident, so ready for the next chapter of my life! I have a dream for my life, and I know what I want to study in college. I just have the feeling you get when you step out in faith and KNOW God's there to help you through it! I'm SO ready for college!
ReplyDeleteWow really? haha, its funny you say I look 13...Your about 6 years off. I am actually 19 and a year behind in school so yeah... I should already be in college and that's another reason why I feel so overwhelmed. haha. =D
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